I haven’t written anything on tumblr…or looked on tumblr for a while for that matter. I kind of miss it though, where I could write out my thoughts somewhere for a few people to see and maybe for a little therapy. But anyway…I just wanted to emphasize the fact to myself that I need to grow the fuck up, like now. I have been in and out of super focus mode like a drive-thru and I just need to focus a lot more. I have no excuses anymore. I have no women stealing my attention away, I’m not even going after anybody anymore. The one I had was good enough for me…and to recover from that I need a good amount of time, time away from a home that I have no intention of coming back to, false commitment, random hook-ups and all that other extraneous shit. I just need a good amount of “me” time, to focus on myself and what I really want.  For one thing, I know I will never stop working towards my dream. I’m gonna work my ass off at this internship, try to hustle my way to some cash, and ultimately educate myself on camera skills and lighting this summer. Then as soon as the school year starts, I’m gonna work towards LA or NY. I’m going to watch more movies, more TV shows, and maybe even teach myself how to make music. This summer is going to work filled but amazing. I’m on my own this summer, and that’s just how I want it. 

kevinmkim:

i always seem to lose my friends eventually—all the good times pushed back somewhere in my head and almost forgotten. maybe we were just too busy going our separate ways that we fell out of touch. maybe we had a stupid fight that ruined our friendship. there’s so many reasons, but one of my regrets in life will be that i didn’t keep the people that were special to me. maybe ill be able to keep the ones i have right now for a longer period of time.